If You Don't Have Anything Nice To Say

I haven't been blogging because I have been a sad person lately. There is no one reason why it's just a combo of the past year's events and self-pity.

Shit happens, right?

I have been feeling really lonely. Not "I want a guy" lonely more of "I need people that understand me" lonely. I really wanted to celebrate Fiesta, a San Antonio tradition, this week. I did go to one event, but only one out of 6 that I wanted to go to. It's because I can't find anyone to go with me and it's no fun to go alone. I have a handful of friends in this town which is just not enough when they are all either broke, in a relationship, don't go out, married, have kids, or Fiesta "isn't their thing".

I won't even mention that I can't find one single damn Blogger to be friends with in this town. (ok...I mentioned it.)

I did however delete the Facebook app off of my phone and I am spending more time on Twitter, which is making me feel MUCH better. I love you guys!

I am moving in with my friend and her 5 kids this weekend. Yeah....that's right....FIVE. I am excited to be around people again. Usually, I just come home and watch T.V. for hours and then go to bed. I wont be able to do that anymore and I wont want to with all those funny kids running around. Also, me and my friend are going to help each other be accountable, for healthy living and our other goals. I feel like it will be a good time.

Are you going to take part in the 20 Something Bloggers Vlog Day on May 1st? I recorded the first part of my video today. :) You should join us!

Run for Hope 5k; a goal FINALLY accomplished!

Holy CRAP! I FINALLY signed up for and completed a 5k!

Here's proof!

Less than a mile in, both my calves where on fire! When I would run, they didn't hurt AS much but as soon as I would start walking my legs would flood and every step felt like needles poking my calves from the inside out. I was determined to finish, even if I had to walk the entire time.

My official time was 52:10 and I am happy with that.

The most important thing to me is that I said I was going to do it and I did. I have made so many goals for myself and my life, it is really exciting to finally start accomplishing them. I have been really busy this month, which I'll recap in a few days.

I am going to sign up for another 5K that is on April 1st. It's an April Fools race, which I'm sure is going to be interesting. I will be training for the next month or so and hope to take 20 minuets off my time.

So excited!

Out of the Darkness walk for Suicide Awareness

So, I posted briefly that I lost my boyfriend to Suicide almost two months ago. The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) will hold nationwide "Out of the Darkness" walks to raise awareness of suicide and their organization.

I am walking for JJ. I am trying to raise $150 for the organization. Honestly, I didn't even know AFSP existed until after JJ's death when I went searching for answers. I am afraid that is the circumstance for most and I strongly believe that AFSP can save lives. I want everyone to know that there is help and that they are not alone.

Here are some facts from AFSP.org:

Every 15 minutes someone dies by suicide. It remains the 11th leading cause of death in this country. Though suicide attempts are not reported, it is estimated that close to one million people make a suicide attempt each year.

Research has shown that 90 percent of people who die by suicide have a diagnosable psychiatric disorder at the time of their death, most often unrecognized or untreated depression.

This can be changed. All we have to do is become AWARE.

Please help me fund awareness by donating $1 to my cause. This is something dear to my heart and if nothing else, you'll be telling myself and others like me that you care.
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Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

I LOVE Color!

Hey guys! Guest what?!?!?! This makes 20 blog posts for me! YAY! :D a small feat I know, but I am still going to celebrate!

So, today in #30lists we are listing our favorite color combinations. How fun is that?!?

First let me say that rainbow has been my favorite "color" since high school. I used to wear it on a daily basis. I don't wear it much anymore but it still makes me happy!

Green,brown,cream/autumn colors are becoming my favorite lately.

Grey is what I like to wear and well...pink and purple, they always go together!

It's day 5 of 30 Days of Lists so I figured now would be a good time to take a look back at my goals for September:

I did work out today, but not last week. That't the past, moving on!
5/5 on 30 days of lists!
I spent some time with some good friends. Just trying to keep balance.
Blogging I have DOWN, gotta post my lists!
Oh, money. Well.....damn. #fail. Oh well. There is always the next paycheck!

3/5 goals on track, That's pretty good!

How is everyone else doing with their goals?

What a LONG weekend!

Here are my lists from Saturday, Sunday and today.









And tomorrow starts a four day work week....here we go!

I am happiest when...

Life right now is a whirlwind of emotions; happy, sad, lonely, faith, hope, despair.....

But this is the day during #30lists that I can focus in the things that make me happy. In the future I plan on adding to this list, reflecting on it and using these things to pick me up when I am down.

P.S. I am going to the San Antonio Botanical Gardens tonight, so...look for that post sometime this week. YAY!

30 Days of Lists

So in a attempt to stick with something once again, I joined 30 Days of Lists.

Today is day 1. Today we listed our goals for the month.

I am planning on posting my lists everyday, some accompanied by a more in depth blog post,some not. I am hoping that this will keep me accountable and get me to start blogging on a regular basis.

Yay for new months and new goals!